Archive for March, 2006

25
Mar

i juz woke up..i was asleep since da 8 pm news.arini aku demam panas..trbaring je kat katil dr siang td.baru lepas basah kepala,skang da ok sket cuma rs lemah n pening plus with a bad sore throat.mayb sbb main hujan kamis mlm baru ni..slalu aku main hujan xde plak demam ke selsema ke..dis time it hit me straight.i’ve been sneezing n blowing nose since last nite..sakit tul.i hardly catch fever but once it hit me i’l deffinitely suffer..rasa mcm nk merengek like baby pun ye..mira told me dat i talked when i sleep.kalo aku demam,mmg teruk..

erm,i need to lay down i think sbb kpala pening sgt2..dr.mira is waiting nk bg i mkn ubat.nasib baik la demam kt umah.kalo kt kolej rs nye aku biar je diri aku trbaring smpai sihat balik..ma pun masak yg sedap2 je..walupun tgh sore throat,aku paksa jugak mkn sket sbb ma yg masakkan..rugi plak demam kt umah,xpat nk menikmati masakn mama yg paling sedap di dunia..hihi..i love her so much..!

p/s~ ma masak cheese naan,kuah dalca daging,ayam tandoori,walnut brownies,butter scotch puding and cucumber juice..

25
Mar

pertama kali bukak blog dreamtransporter..aku trtarik dgn beberapa ungkapan kata2..

~Tertutup mata mengenang derita,dgn deria yg ada,kubaca kuingati sisa kehidupan yg ada,membetulkan yg silap,menambahkan yg kurang..biar menggelepar tinggal harapan ini..akan kuharungi dgn tabah dan redha..~

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~Kusingkap tirai kehidupan ku yg baru,meneliti detik setiap nafas yg bakal aku lalui,mengungkap setiap erti nilai kehidupan,mencanangkan bahagia agar tersebar gembira lalu melenyapkan segala derita dan bakal mengakhirkan keseksaan ini~

kite hampir sama..

24
Mar

many things happened dis month..cecwan n cectpa paying a visit kt ukm,gathering ke genting,abadi 06,mid term xm,my sis x jumpe jln blk umah n i also make sum new frenz..if possible,i’d really luv 2 put it in da blog but then again time is very consuming..a’ment yg dok ada pun x abeh buat xkan la nk abeh masa ngadap bende alah ni..ye x?hik!benanye xde la wat a’ment sgt pun..masa aku bnyk abes ngadap laptop kt bilik main zuma yg x lepas2 level 9 sejak awal sem aritu..balik kelas,trus ngadap bende alah tu..sedar2 je da mlm..jgn kata blog,a’ment pun br sentuh bila da due date..bukan salah aku ek..lap top tu yg salah..eh,bukan! game tu yg salah..eh,x!..org yg bg game tu yg salah..eh,tu btul..hihi..

merepek ape je aku ni..jam da kol 3 stgh..mata aku pun da berat..i gez i better make a move then..org dlm umah ni sume da lama tdo..aku je..

24
Mar

da past 2,3 days ive been listening 2 dis song..it’s not dat it has to do anything abt me but then da song played along with da same tune with my heart..

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There’s an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You’re a loss I can’t replace

Soledad
It’s a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Walking down the streets of nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can’t believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Cause I can’t still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name

Soledad
It’s a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Time will never change the things you tols me
After all we’re meant to be love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see

Soledad
It’s a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

-i’ve forgiven u..it’s juz dat i need sum time n space for myself so dat i’ll feel better then.

24
Mar

sad story

da next morning,pagi2 lg aku dengar bising2 kt bawah..rupa2 nye..2 of da nemo da mati..tinggal sekor je lg yg aktif brenang renang.aku prasan ma n abah la org yg paling sedey.x lama kendian mcm ade smangat baru je dr mama,ma kata ma nk cari kedai ikan laut nk tnye apa yg x kena.tgh ari sket lpas zohor aku ikut ma g kdai akuarium ikan laut.ma x pegi keje pun aritu..ma ckp slagi x setle baby die x leh nk g keje..ati die x tenteram. hik!ma bwk skali sampel air akuarium ktorg suh check ape yg x kena.

uncle tu nama die mr.lee..die ckp,kand garam ok cuma air agak keruh.die suggest la filter baru skali ngan pam baru n hydrometer utk check kpekatn garam dlm air.ma pun beli la sgala mak nenek tuh.kt kdai tuh ade bnyk ikan nemo..ade dory..ade gill..ade la sesume watak ikan dlm citer finding nemo tuh.ma kata ma nk beli ikan nemo lg so dat baby ade la kawan nk main2..alkesah..ma pun beli aa 6 ekor lagi.2 ikan belang itam putih (gill),1 ikan biru,1 ikan biru campur kuning,2 ikan nemo..ma nk beli anemone baru utk baby tp mr lee ckp..’nnt dulu,u kasi bersih dulu air,bile air suda ok baru angkt ini anemone.u tau ka itu anemone idup.kalo anemone mati,nemo sure mati punye maa..anemone punye lendir manyak toksin.kalo suda kuar itu lendir maksud die anemone mau mati nemo lpas tu mati woo..’ aku n ma melopong gak aa denga uncle tuh ckp..well,dat answer y 2 baby mati pg td.

balaik umah,aku n ma skali lg bersihkn akuarium tuh n ganti air baru..siap sukat kand garam lg.tukar filter n tukar pam.ma abes kt kdai uncle tuh abt rm100…melampau btul baby nih!!settle air,ktorg pun masukkn kengkwn baby tuh.lama duk dpn akuarium tuh kami dok pelik pasai apa la depa xnk kwn ngan baby.abah balik keje pun ngadap akuarium.mlm tuh ma x masak dinner..order domino’s pizza jerk.gara2 nk pay attention kt baby…lpas dinner,penat g tioman x abes lg.still rs exhausted,kulit kering mengelupas,sakit tekak,blister kt mulut,ade yg selsema,ade yg demam..mlm tuh sume tdo awal..da x risau da pasal baby.

da next morning,aku denga vbising2 kt bwh lg…praying’jgn la ade yg mati lg..ya allah..’ tp apa bleh buat kan,ajal maut di tgn tuhan,sume kengkwn baby mati kecuali our only baby..we all jammed.couldnt figure out wat actually caused da death.lpas siap2 pg slasa tuh aku blk ukm..ptg tu aku dpt berita buruk kematian baby..sedey sgt..ma x nk buang ikan2 tu,x nk tanam..tp nk simpan dlm freezer.arini aku blk umah,bukak freezer carik eskem nmpk baby n frenz..sedey giler..akuarium yg trsudut di dining hall tu pun ma still biar kt situ..empty.Aq

20
Mar

my vacation at tioman island

arini aku x g klas..in fact,i’m still at home while i’m writing di blog.i juz came back frm tioman.i went 2 tioman on thurday nite n reach tioman island at 11.30am friday morning.naik feri kt mersing..teruk gler feri tuh!pelik btul sbb slalunye bile naik feri camni mama mest pening tp die rilek je..yg x rilek nye aku,erin n syazlin.we all muntah brplastik2.nasib baik ade brader sorang yg jaga feri tu tlg.lupa plak tnye nama die kalo x bleh gak tulis kt sini..erm,memula erin muntah dulu,pastu syazlin pastu baru aku.brader tuh tlg amek kan plastik utkktorg,ajak ktorg lepak luar feri,siapkn tmpat duduk utk ktorg..die amek tin minyak sape tah wat krusi utk aku n adik2 aku,siap lap kan lg..mmg gentleman.die tlg buangkn muntah ktorg n carik lg plastik sbb plastik yg ade da abes gune wat mun..ktorg muntah gilir2 lak tu.pastu brader tu tlg amek air wat kumur,die suh basahkn tengkuk n leher,basah kn kpala adik2 aku..die amek kan tisu wat lap mulut..serius trharu sgt masa tu.die tgu ngan ktorg smpai ktorg da lembik sgt2 da xde ape2 nk kuar perut pastu die suh ktorg mauk dlm feri blk suh tdo n rehat..die ckp.."awk pegi la rehat..masuk dlm gerenti tdo.." btul aa ckp die,elok duduk je trus aku n adik2 ghaib..sedar2 da smpai kt tioman.aku sempat say thanx kt die masa turun feri..

vacation ni bukan la family aku je..includes kluarga makteh,kluarga yahwa..3 in 1 family vacation la kire nye ni..on friday,lpas smpai tioman we all checked in kt berjaya resort.okla..hotel die not so bad.xdela exclusive sgt tp still interesting.ade spa,ade swimming pool yg cantik siap ngan slide n jakuzi n also kt pool tu ade kump pemain muzik yg main lagu sambil ader pompuan seksi nari2 sblah die,kire ok laa…ape yg ok?pompuan tu la..hik!ptg jumaat ktorg mandi laut,main pasir..laut die cantik,jernih sgt..lpas pnat main laut,dgn x salin baju nye trus g restoran dpn berjaya hotel tu,we all had our dinner kt sana.tau2 je la mcm mana rupenye org yg lapar lpas main laut..buruk gler!cam pirana pun ye gak…hihi i’m exceptional ok..i maintain jek..hik!

dat nite we didnt do anything much sbb da letih ngan journey yg gt memuntahkn.saturday morning kol 6.30 ma da kjut ktorg smayg subuh.lpas solat,we all siap2 g b’fast.lpas b’fast ktorg g snorkelling..huhu! Snork3 Snork Snork2

best sgt2!!!nama brader yg guide ktorg masa tu is abg sharul..saspek aa die bawak speed boat..siap main amek lap lagi..cayalah!die bawak ktorg kt tmpt2 yg sgt cantik..da corals r so beautiful!tuhan tu maha bijaksana..ciptaan die sgt cantik dan sgt indah..subhanallah..we were taken to 7 places of snorkelling area.stiap tmpt tu ade jenis ikan n corals yg brbeza.at our third stop,masa tgh snorkelling abg sharul tunjuk kt ktorg dlm tgn die ade ikan nemo.menjerit2 sume budak2 especially my mom..excited sesgt..Cl ma suh abg sharul tangkap lg sekor,so he did..amek la ikan2 nemo tuh boh dlm tupperware yg isi biskut tp biskut da xde laa sbb da abes wat kasik ikan mkn.ma trus nekad na amek ikan nemo nk bela…abg sharul x kate ape pun,die ok memanjang..aku?aku kesian kt ikan tuh.da moment die berada dlm taperware tuh aku cam tringat je nasib ikan guppy n sgala ikan dok ade yg kt umah tu tp aku diam je la…i dont want 2 kill other ppl punye enthusiast.snorkelling wat aku rs mcm brenang dlm akuarium..ms bg ikan rs mcm aku ni brkongsi alam dgn dieorg..serius masa snorkelling tuh tringat citer da little mermaid yg aku tgk 20000 kali kt umah.best sesgt tinggal x jumpe ikan duyung jerk..hik!Mer

erm..oleh krn we all snorkelling sgt lama..dr kol 10 pg smpai 7 ptg..msg2 sume dh mcm rentung jerk.ktorg balik ari ahad pg naik feri.gez wat?dr pulau tioman ktorg suda smugle la 3 ekor ikan nemo n 2 gamat..siap bwk balik air laut tioman aa..konon stock air utk nemo..ma mmg nekad nk bela ikan nemo yg disludup 2 dgn bantuan abg sharul.elok je smpai kt jeti mersing, ma kelam kabut carik kedai ikan..ye aa ikan nemo yg ktorg sludup tu xde oksigen..nk bawak travel blk shah alam lg..ma siap beli akuarium,sea salt,mknn dier ,pam oksigen n filter die,lampu die,pasir n coral die..all in abt rm300..syg btul ma kt nemo die tuh jeles aku..3ratus kalo shopping da bleh dpt 5 psg jeans bunge2 plus a few top shirt..adeh!so,slesai urusn bkalan oksigen ikan2 nemo mama tuh,we all rush blk umah.smpai kt umah trus psg akuarium.sume org EXCITED GILE!!!org2 kt umah aku kan obsess ngan ikan..serius,kronik!memula psg akuarium,psg pam n filter,letak pasir,coral n sum stones adik aku ckp konon utk ikan main2..(erm,main la sgt…),masukkan air yg da dicampurkn sea salt n finally part paling truja is masukkn ikan..oh,lupa plak..ikan nemo yg abg sharul tangkap kan ni complete ngan plate coral n umah die anemone..sblum masukkn ikan,ma masukkn dulu coral n anemone die..pastu,baru masuk kn ikan nemo yg ktorg panggil baby..An2_2 An_1 Cl2 Cl3 Cl4

baby nmpk trkejut n agk panik masa memula masuk akuarium..lari dr satu sudut ke satu sudut.air akuarium masa tuh x smpai sparuh,so abah n ma pun cdg nk tmbh air,die org pun wat la keje2 membancuh air garam tuh..siap brtimbang2 bagai.yg paling aku n adik2 aku trkjut ialah tgk abah pun keje keras je nk siapkn umah baru baby..abah tlg stir air ngan garam,angkt air garam g kt akuarium,tuang air garam dgn penuh hati2 supaya x kena baby..as soon as akuarium penuh ngan air,anemone telah mengeluarkn lendir yg sgt bnyk smpai penuh satu akuarium.we all pelik giler..to da extend yg smpai baby xleh brenang n cam suffocate xleh nafas.ma n abah panik..jerit2 tgk ikan tuh trcungap2.ma cepat2 amek penapis cedok baby kuar n konon nk bersihkn baby..serius,akuarium penuh ngan lendir n air die makin lama makin keruh..lpas tapis air beberapa kali pun lendir die stil bnyk lg.kendian ma n abah decide nk tukar air.so we all pun tlg aa kuarkn air mean while abah n ma bancuh air baru..baby still trcungap2.smpai kol 4stgh pg pun x settle lg..last2 ade cdgn suh kuarkn anemone..anemone pun kena pindah ke besen.finally,akuarium pun brjaya di bersihkn drpd lendir2 tuh..penat oo!baby sume mcm x enjoy je..mcm sakit pun ye,cam pening pun ye.letih la kot,kena proses mcm2 ngan ktorg hik!elok masuk subuh pas solat sume pun tdo sambil trsenyum sbb kt umah ade ikan nemo yg we all panggil baby..comey sgt..

20
Mar

ade org dedicate lagu ni kat i…jgn jeles!

as i look into your eyes
i see all the reasons why
my life’s worth a thousand skies
you’re the simplest love i’ve known
and the purest one i’ll own
know you’ll never be alone
chorus: my baby you
are the reason i could fly
and ’cause of you
i don’t have to wonder why
baby you
there’s no more just getting by
you’re the reason i feel so alive
though these words i say are true
they still fail to capture you
as mere words can only do
how do i explain that smile
and how it turns my world around
keeping my feet on the ground
repeat chorus
i will soothe you if you fall
i’ll be right there if you call
you’re my greatest love of all

05
Mar

fishy…

Fish1 a weekend with fishes.my mom is now obsess with fish.practically i’ll find fish in almost every corner of my house. Fish2 not only we have fish in da refrigerator but also fish next to our tv ,on the dining table,on the study table, at da stair case, upstair’s hall..b4 dis she bought 2 ekor ikan laga n it end up where da blue fish died of suffered to da noise from our home theatre n da red fish commit suicide of loneliness.Fish3

dis time my mom bought ikan neon,ikan guppy n few other pattern which i dunno da names.me n ina yg kena cuci 2 kolam ikan kat luar rumah tu.masa we all cuci kolam tu 8 fishes were found dead n from da report dat i got,Fish4  previously secara purata 3 fishes will die everyday.i felt so bad.really bad…pitty da fish sgt2..Fish5

walaupun org dalam rumah ni gile tgk citer nemo, Fish7

still kesedaran is not there yet..my god!Fish6

05
Mar

at last…

it was a great weekend!it has been almost 4 weeks n finally things are back to how it used 2 b.i miss her so much!!miss 2 hear she calls my name, miss her jokes,miss her cook,miss her hugs n kisses, miss her a lot!i had a great time with her..mayb xla semesra dulu but alhamdulillah she talked 2 me,called my name when she needed me,asked me to carry her orchid flowers,told me 2 go buy bread n flour,called me to hav lunch n dinner 2gether..da point is, i knew dat she has forgiven me!

sum1 actually gave me real gud advice (advice + self experience)..thanx,taiko.i didnt write a letter 2 her but i somehow understand her better n comprehend how she wanted things to b.i’m not saying thank you for da advice only but also thank u 4 making me feel much better dat nite.only god knows how bad i really feel n how much i really miss my mom..syukur alhamdulillah,e’thing is doing fine now..i juz hope i’ll never repeat da same mistake in da future.