sUkmA JaRak

ptg td,aku g ziarah kubur arwah aiman..

few years back…

shima ajak aku join die g mandi sg.tekala..since aku pn xde bende nk wat dat weekend.i said ok.mlm tu aku tdo umah die..dat morning,kiteorg pn grak la sesame.aku naek moto ngan shima..bf die ms tu ade moto tzm..aku igt lg kaler biru kuning.i was quite surprise ms tuh,rupenye ramai yg pegi trip tu..n da others were all tzm riders..

aku wat mcm biase..syok sgt ms tuh mandi sg.shima pn jage aku baek sgt.yer la,kalo x silap aku,yg pompuan nye aku ngan die je..yg laen sume guys.she introduced me to all of them..they were all nice n easy to talk to..frenly n funny..

yg aku igt name..arwah aiman,rezal,rizal..yg laen2 tuh da kabur dlm ingatan.hihi

1 very sweet part i remember..
tempat nk salin bj kt situ ade 2 bilik..sblah menyeblah n on top of it open mcm tu je..pintu die pn mcm ‘x gune ade pintu’..xleh kunci.
dak laki sume da salin bj da..shima salin kt bilik sblah,bf die jagekn pintu die..aku punye turn nk salin ms tuh,i tot of waiting shima abes salin dulu br aku nk salin.

"ida g la masuk salin..xpe,aiman jage pintu." aku pn kate ok.."bg baju ida tu,aiman pegang kn dulu..nnt basah" aku pn ikut je ckp die..
dr dlm aku ckp la kt die.."jage tau.." iyea.. "jage tau.." iyeaa..jage ni.. hihi aku gelak2 kt dlm tu..he handed me da clothes when i asked.kuar dr bilik tu,i thanked him.he smiled.

there’s another part.aku xkn lupe..
ms siap2 tu,aku tgh pkai bedak silky white aku yg br bli..abes aku brbedak..he came to me "tu ape?" ni bedakla.. "bg jap bley..?"  nk watpe..pompuan punye bedak la.. "nk cket.." serius?  die angguk2..i gave it to him.. haha die btul2 pkai bedak tu..aku gelak giler ms tuh.shima ckp merepek la aiman nih..a’ah merepek tp comel pun ade..hihi

ever since then,aku rajin ikut shima hang out ngan bdk2 tzm..lepak kt projet..slalunye saturday n sunday yg aku xde aktvt kolej la..kuar minum..kuar mkn..i was single back then..oops!nway,i’m still single by now..hihi

dnt remember where he got my hp num,but we  were smsing each other 4 quite sumtime until shima told me he was 17 yrs old at dat time.ms tuh aku br 2nd yr.jauh gak la beza umur.serius,he didnt look like a 17 yrs old.we became close frens 2 each other..there was dis time he came to my kolej juz 2 send me an ice cream.smpai je kt kolej aku,igt nk mkn ms tu tp too bad,da cair..mcm mane ice cream tu cair,mcm tu la aku rs..trharu sgt.we talked 4 a while..suddenly,shima n her bf dtg..i cn stil remember da look on his face ms tuh.cuak! hihi
trus die start motor,die ckp die blk dulu..aku ok je la ms tu.

lpas die pegi,shima btau aku 1 bende.die ckp..he has a crush on me.as far as i know,i see him as a very gentlemen malay guy.genuinely,gentle!malay guy kn jarang sgt nk jumpe yg btul2 gentlemen.he’s very nice n pemalu..very sweet actually.

until 1 fine day,he told me wat he felt towards me.i had to lie 2 him..i dont want to break his heart.x sampai ati nk wat die mengharap..prjlnn n mase dpn die jauh lg..told him i’m attached 2 sum1 already.he told me he was very sure yg aku xde ngan sape2 pn.another lie,i said i was in a long distance relationship..sedey sgt trpakse tipu die mcm tuh.n i regret it until now.

we were still frenz..i was nice to him n he was nicer 2 me.

we used 2 make miss calls..i understand it was his sign of remembering me,n kalo aku bls i bet he wud take it as "i’m thinking of u too"..i think so..

1 day,die buat miss call bnyk kali..frm morning to nite.tp aku bls 2 kali je..sbb mmg bz sgt2 ms tu.i was kt umah ngan ma n adik2..ade sum sort of gathering.
next day,aku ikut ma g ofis die..kol 4 ptg,aku received call dr shima..

"ida,aiman accident!" ..akutrsentak.."ida,aku kt kedah ni..hang tlg la pi tgk die sat..die da meninggal" …i cried so bad.. trus mintak izin mama utk g tgk die..

ma bg aku pegi,n he sent zul to drive me there..i couldnt drive.sepjg jln dlm keter,aku menangis,brdoa…merayu pd allah supaya diberi kesempatan utk tgk muke die..kali trakhir.

allah tu maha baek pada aku..w/pun jln jem ms tuh,Die tlh pn prmudahkn.sejurus aku smpai kt masjid tuh,aku trus lari menuju arwah..sempat jugak tgk muke die.as if he was smiling at me,like he used to..aku menanges truk sgt2..trase kehilangn die yg amat sgt.

aku menyesal ats bnyk perkare..bnyk perkare yg aku tlah buat n x sempat aku jelas kn pd die.

yg nyata,allah lebih sygkn die.. (smpai cni dulu coretan ni,sbb aku da mula rs sebak..adik2 sume da pandang pelik..)