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It’s valentine’s month..

da movies r cracking my feelings..

sumthing’s gotta give,memoirs of a geisha,prime,u’ve got mail, veer zarra n many more..

"i’m heartbroken.i feel as if i’m partly dead.." by meg ryan in u’ve got mail

"i’m gonna runaway from falling in luv..i’d kill u if i had to" ..prime

almost all of da movies in da tv sobbed me.makes me feel like lying down on a railway..wish to be crushed by a train.a fast 1!i bet da pain is so much less than being heartbroken..yer aa,x sempat rs saket pn,tau2 je da mati..pastu komfem masuk neraka..lg saket..uish!nauzubillah hi min zalik..xmo la..

cant avoid,luv story makes me cry.makes me weep..bunyi nye mcm lemah sgt kn but actually after crying i become more gallant..emotionally.

more faith to keep on walking thru dis miserable passage.

well,actually..kalo tgk luv story smpai nanges2 tu sbb trharu..luv story slalunye happy ending..kdg2 aku nanges sbb citer tu buat cinta nmpk sgt indah..which i supposed to believe in real life,looks can be very deceiving..

wit so much of unsuccesful relationship around me (didnt count mine yet), i find my self very tasteless to love..to luv neither being loved.i’ve juz lost interest on L.O.V.E.

Sempena bulan kasih sayang ni,i wish all my frenz find their true luv n may true love find u true.

Happy Valentine’s Day

there were several times when tyco called me,i was unreachable.i was most of da time bz n occupied.

14.02.08
mase tgh tgu keter aku servis,i had 1 hour of not doing anything other than waiting.
reminded me to call tyco..it was pretty much of pleasant whenever i talk 2 him.didnt know he’s becoming a father very soon.made me smile,tumpang gembira la katekn.

sjak dulu lg,our telephone conversation x penah pun berjam2 lamenye.
tp kalo jumpe,mmg smpai ke pg..hihi
i miss my gud old days with him..

nway,dat day when i called him..ade satu part yg buat aku brfikir..deep thinking.
i told him..
    "ida bz sgt..siang uruskn ofis,mlm uruskn umah.."
tyco then popped out
    "sape uruskn ida…?"

i was paused 2 seconds..plain answer as it is,"xde sape.."

knoe wat happened? those particular phrases n conversation never stop bulging in my mind.

it was sumthing dat i didnt realize all dis while..it actually sounded pathetic as it may seem to others..
but i myself knoe..wit my family by my side,life has never been better.

…."xde sape.."

ade baeknye kite cuba plak melihat kehidupn,sumenye dr sudut yg positif.dr situ hidup sentiase nmpk keindahannye walaupn pd hakikatnye life is full of pain..

stiap kali trserempak dgn beautiful moments,otak aku mcm nk menangkap sumenye utk dijadikn peringatn supaye di saat2 aku merase sedih atau kosong,sekurang2 nye these pictures of memory wud make me smile..wud at least tell me "life isnt dat bad,ida..".

frm last week till tonite,it was pretty strange dat i started 2 hv a wide feelings.satu prasaan yg sgt luas..rs die mcm duduk kt tgh2 padang yg luas..

few months ago,i planted sum sunflower seeds..2day da flowers bloom in their vases..

few months ago, sum of my she-guppies gave birth..as at 2day,i hv 6 beautiful growing baby guppies in my aquarium..

few months ago,i feel sad of having to decide dat i lost a gud fren,but recently god replaced me wit a new 1..definitely a gud 1.

last 3 weeks,early in da morning,i went 2 usj on a completion of a task.i was feeling so down,having thoughts dat life is so unfair 4 true luv..suddenly,i saw a very old couple walking  2gether n holding hands..they are so in luv in such a way..

keje kt ofis sgt truk.kdg2 smpai mkn airmate n also swallow ur feelings n sweat..tp sume rs penat tu ilang bile aku blk umah,adik2 sambut dgn salam,ciumn n plukan.da best part is when aku pegi amek apis kt skolah..bile die nmpk je aku,die mcm da 17 thn x jumpe aku..die nnt jerit "kkida……….." lari2,pluk aku..cium2 pipi n spjg jln he will tell me stories abt his teacher n frenz.

those r da most beautiful things dat happened since da past few months..i’ve seen more 2day.

she touched down at 5.30am.i went 2 klia 2 pick her up.we were jumping n screaming,hugging each other..gosh!i missed her so much.

it was painted all over her face dat my mom really miss my sister..senyumn mama td sperti memberitahu aku bhw kpulangan na lah ubt tahan saket die yg plg kuat..

it was also painted on his face dat i actually know my father was feeling so relief frm his overprotective-disease once my sis gave him dat warm hug..

arini trase sgt lengkap.bukn aku sj.all of us..we hd a gr8 family dinner 2nite.a complete family gathering..wpun ma sbenanye x bape sehat utk kuar jenjln tp arini she looks great!stunningly beautiful,strong n tender..warmth n luvly..

sum times small things can really make a lot of difference in u.

sesungguhnye,aku btul2 brsyukur dgn ape yg tlah allah berikn..x kire yg baek atau pn yg buruk..