sUkmA JaRak

Allah tu maha baik..

pd saat dan ketika aku merasa sgt susah utk mlakukn sesuatu, Allah tlah prmudahkn bgku..

pd saat dan ktika aku mengadu padaNya bhw aku merasa sepi yg tramat, Allah tlah mengisi kekosongn tu dgn gelak tawa adik2 yg trsayang..

pd saat dan ktika aku mrase lemah utk meneruskn hidup, Allah mengingatkn aku pd mama yg x prnah mengalah shingga saat2 akhir die..

Allah maha baik trhdpku pd stiap saat dan ktika..

ive a new fren..i believe Allah gave me dis new fren for a reason..we hv so much of differences yet it seems like we r similar 2 each other. da major common dat we hv is both of us lost our beloved mother..erm he lost his mom 20 days after ma pegi.ever since mama pegi,i was like keeping everything 2 myself,not believing dat others could possibly feel n understand how i feel until i met dis mr.nice guy..

seriously we r 2 diff ppl wit totally diff way of living n thinking tp aku prcaye Allah punye sbb yg trsendr knape die knalkn aku dgn  kwn br ni. i learn lots of things frm him.. i get 2 learn 2 control my sadness da way he seems 2 control himself. .  awk sye =)

i hope Allah will alwiz give u all d best things in life..u kena slalu doa,k..

ape saje kurniaan tuhan pd ku,syukur alhamdulillah..timer kaseh ya Allah..

aku sedang mlalui hari2 ku..tanpa insan yg paling aku sayangi..

saban ari yg brganti,kosong..

trase mcm die pegi utk smentara je dan aku spt sdang menunggu kpulangn die kt rumah ni..

tau x ape rs nye bile kite tgu seseorg tu lame sgt..?lame sgt2..

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zahirnye org slalu ckp yg aku sgt tabah menerima dugaan Allah yg 1 ini tp aku sbnanye x kuat pn utk mlalui sume ni.. inside of me r breaking into pieces.saban hari mengharapkn Allah memegang atiku erat2..agar x lumpuh di mata adik2..

dlm stiap titipn doa,aku merayu pd Allah mohon belas dan kasih sayang dr Die..agar aku mampu mengisi rs kekosongan adik2 yg masih kecil ni..spt mane aku merase sepi,aku x mau seorg pn dr mereka terdera dgn rs itu.

janji aku pd mama..

“ida,nnt tlg ye jage kn adik2 utk mama..”

“ida..nnt tlg jage kn abah ye utk mama..kesian kt die nnt tgl sorg..”

“ida..make sure na,mira n erin jd doctor ye..ni harapn mama..”

ye ma..ida janji akn jage adik2 mcm mane ma jage ida..ida janji sayang adik2 mcm mane ma sayang ida..ida janji besarkn adik2 macam mane ma besarkn ida..ida janji,ma..

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smakin lame ma pergi,smakin tebal rs rindu aku pd mama..buat hati dan mata ku mencari-cari kelibat mama di stiap sudut rumah ni..

ape saje,sume nye punye sentuhn die..

smakin mase menjarakkan, smakin ketare rs khilangn ini..

spt mane abh,aku juga sdang mencari..di manakah titik ‘move on’ when she is the 1 who moves us..